Oh My Tian + Old Hen + Baby Shower + 4-day fever

Since I am at home doing basically nothing, I shall blog about my boring story of these few days. Away from those CNY posts for a while. 

Singapore mourns as founding father Mr Lee Kuan Yew dies

I guess most of us (like me), woke up this morning to devastating news that our founding father Mr Lee Kuan Yew pass away at 3.18am. I sat on bed, in a daze and wished that it was a hoax, and on the other hand, feeling relieved that its no longer painful for Mr Lee.



This is the closest I can get to Mr Lee, taken in Mdm Tussaud's Hong Kong.

And I am very thankful that I was at the Floating Platform last year for Mr Lee's last NDP, that was the last time I was at a closer distance to Mr Lee, but at the same time, he was already very weak then.

I have no interest in political issues but I know Mr Lee is a great man. Without him, there will be no us.

Heard from my mother that my maternal grandparents got married and came to Singapore for a living (all the way from China). They were very poor, and I believe we all know that the living conditions in the 50s were terrible. I am thankful and grateful that Mr Lee came a long way, fought real hard for our comfortable lives right now.

Earlier on in the office, I quickly switched on the radio, Kiss 92 is not the same today, the usual cheerful morning gang is replaced with solemn voices, sad music, and news flash on Mr Lee's passing, followed by PM Mr Lee Hsien Loong's speech.
We also had 1-min of silence in respect to Mr Lee with the chairman of our company.

Sitting here in the comfort of my house, using a MacBook with Broadband.
Travelling on straight roads, no air pollution, clean and green environment, a 9-5 job for most of us, who should we thank? These don't come easy.

Writing this with Channel 8 ''Remembering Lee Kuan Yew - Building a Nation'' playing in the background, is really heart wrenching.



The gloomy skies yesterday right before the storm.

It is a sad day for all of us.



After the storm, hey we are a beautiful city and I am proud of that.

This beautiful city need no edit, no watermark to spoil the picture.



Thank you Mr Lee for these beautiful memories. Thank you Mr Lee for shaping Singapore to a place that we can call our home. RIP Mr Lee.

Unbearable work

I wanted to blog a long post of this really really irritating supervisor our team had, but i was plain lazy.

Anyway I had a change of job and said goodbye to this irrtating asshole, i still had to find time to blog about him to completely vent my anger. Stay tune.

Me time now

Sitting at a cafe now, with myself, and a cup of Hojicha cream & a heavy heart, penning my thoughts here.

This post might not be my usual ones, because there is no food pictures, no description, no prices. Nothing, except words.

All along I was rather happy until one day I realised I had been very unfairly treated at work that I have to rant here, because I couldn't be possibly telling my friends or family or anyone.

Since the purpose of a blog is a diary, I shall write it here. Hopefully it will not be lengthy. I will follow up with a post with food and happy stuff.

I actually don't know how to start or how do I put it. But I will try.




I shall not go into details on many shit because I will dedicate another post on that (all the fucked up people in the office, when friends become enemies or worse than that, and lastly a failed relationship that shouldn't have started in the first place).

So here is:

My supervisor dislike me (maybe only known to me, and the friends/colleagues around her). And because of this, I suffered at work.

I was been treated unfairly and nobody could help, and even if i feedback to her (yes, i feedback to the one who planned to treat me unfairly, how dumb but never mind, I have learnt), she has all sorts of ways & means to turn this unfair treatment into a situation which seems very fair to me. Well, I don't know how but it really happened.

Basically, I was given a lot of work, difficult tasks and so on. I didn't realised until now day, at about 5pm, I realised a colleague is actually slacking, walking around, going for smoke breaks, then i began to check, began to monitor.

Our work is based on KPI. Numbers are all we talk about whole day.

Example:
Colleague A doing a whole day of work, was given 120.
Me doing half a day, was given 70.
When this was highlighted, supervisor said, doing this tasks has no stats/no KPIs. So it means I have to suck thumb. So I SUCK.

At that point I havn't realised how unfair she is to me, until a few weeks ago, i began to realised, whatever nonsensical shits that this other colleague complained to her about, (the complaints are really i-find-no-words-to-describe, colleague complained ''cannot cope'' but by 4.30pm, he finished all his work, and was slacking around) she will try her very best to decrease his work load. WOW, well done. I am loss for words.
This colleague, can come in at 9.30-9.45am, go for breakfast for 30 to 45 mins, and complained that he cannot cope and he get to start slacking at 4.30pm. WOW.... WELL DONE.

And so, I find that my work load is getting heavier, I feedbacked to her last friday.

And you won't want to know what happened, but anyway she still refused my request but still say that the colleague is doing a lot of work (i really cannot see how she see him doing a lot of work when he only work a good 6 hours).

Ok, this is a very summarised version, but I just want to write it down, in case one day, I happened to be not around, and someone discovered this, I can make history. Jus kidding.

RIP BoyBoy :(

AUGUST 2010 - 8TH FEBRUARY 2012

RIP MY DEAR BOY

He was about one month old when we bought him. He is such a cutie, the most handsome and cutest hamster in the world. Blogging this still bring tears to my eyes, although 2 months had past. I still miss BoyBoy very much :(

He was found dead in his favourite hide-out (wooden house) where he store his shit and food. Well at least he is peaceful. He must have felt my pain :') I love you boy.

Isn't he cute? He can even do monkey bar. 

Now I get emo all over again. I hate the fact that I can no longer blog about him, seeing him doing all sorts of funny stuff. I know he is just a hamster, I still couldn't get over it yet.

Was still in the midst of doing a page for him (still trying to find all his pictures) but he is now gone.

Just Saying

Had this urge to delete this blog.

Reading through old posts, and wondering ''WTF happened?? Why is it not the same anymore?''

Happy Valentine's Day! (2012)

Happy Valentine's Day to all (not for me though, no celebrations, no gifts, no choclates, no sweet messages, NOTHING....)

Add-on to the post before the previous one

And not forgetting... In the midst of quarrels or unhappy conversation, please do not bring up 'break up', or ask your partner to go to your house to take back all his/her stuff, unless you are very serious about it. What are you treating your relationship as? A joke? A game? You like it, you requested to be together, you don't like it, you requested a break up for fun. How pathetic is the relationship if this were to happen?
So when your partner decides to respect your decision, by this time, there is no turning back.

To those people who used to be close, where is she when you are feeling down? Where is she when you need someone to talk to? Where is she when you need a ATM?
I don't know what is going on between you guys but you seriously suck badly. Thankful that little amount of money, could let us see how a person you are.
Did I ever look down on you when you are the third party to other's people marriage? Think about it.

XOXO!!

Thanksgiving?

The act of gving thanks?

This post is for all the people who hate me, love me, or rather everybody!

And since it is already December, I would like to close the chapter and move on. 4th day into my favourite month and I already got cheated, wasted my time but life is good, no more stupidity anymore, the rest of the months to come will be good, definitely. 

Wanted to blog this post for the longest time since March/April this year but never got down to it, as it was hard to sit down, recalled all the incidents that had happened, it automatically brought tears to my eyes. 

After many months of heartbreak & tears, I am proud to say I have learnt to let go - letting go people who came into my life and left or on the verge of leaving. 

Thanks to those people who have wasted my time, brought tears & miseries to my life, if not I won't learn to let go very easily from now on.

So, what is love?

Love is not about spending time sleeping at home than spending time with your other half - Your other half is a human, not the blosters, pillows, mattress, sheets.

This is the most basic in a relationship that I feel a lot of people do not understand or do not practise. 

So, as times goes by, your other half had gotten used to your love-relationship with your bed, and you start to realised something is wrong or amiss, you started blaming everything/your partner, except yourself. WHY?

It may sound crazy but there are couples out there that may lack knowledge about one another. How well do you know your partner? Do you even know if your partner had fallen sick? Do you know what is your partner doing at this very moment? Again, how well do you know your partner? Is your relationship lack of communication? Do you even know which days are your partner on MC/on leave etc? How many hours a week do you spend talking on the phone with your partner? Or is it ''erm.. is there anything to talk about?'' 

When a problem arise in your relationship, you start to post stuff on facebook or twitter, thats why I always have a saying ''whoever posted such stuff is the winner'', and its really true. I witnessed it myself, with my own eyes, be it in my own situation or another party. You posted something and so those friends or not-so-close friends will start to say ''I hope you are fine'', ''cheer up'' , ''i seldom see you lke this'', ''what happened'', ''meet up soon'' etc etc. And so of course you will receive smses, whatsapps or messages from any form/mode. Then the stories-telling start. Good luck to the other half. 

How much do these friends/not-so-close friends know about you & your partner? Or how much of the truth they know about you & your partner & what is actually happening? only 50% of the story told were the truth? Sympathies and everything flocked in. 

With this, have you ever respect your partner? Have you try talking things out when you have doubts? Please do understand that a real relationship requires alot of effort than just two person deeply in love. Have you make any effort to make him/her stay?

Some people are curious on what had happened. Since beginning of this year, life is really bad, be it love or friendship. 

This couple friend(I think we were friends, close friends in the office)of mine had some problems in their relationship (like what I have stated above), but I don't know why it seems like everyone thinks that I am a third party. First time in my life, I felt like a famous star. People who knows or don't know me (majority I don't know them and they don't know me) talks about me. Actually, it is fine, you may talk all you want because I don't care anymore. 

To me, it feels like a joke, if you do not cherish your relationship, if you have that heck-care attitude towards your other half, and if problem arises, please do not put the blame on innocent parties. 

And to those who love using this phrase (I simply hate this phrase but I have to say), I am telling you ''我认识他比你久''. Whatever incidents happen, I heard this phrase, so hello please wake up. 

Sumnmary: Sleep and everything else is more important than your other half, when you woke up from it, you realised your relationship is different from how it used to me, and you blamed me. 

This is basically what happen, a very summarised version. There are a lot more stories to it but I am not going to elaborate. 

If it is just three of us, it is ok. But its the whole world and me. Yes, sad to say but it is the truth. 

Colleagues/supervisor who used to be closed to me, who will even greet or smiled to each other, had became strangers overnight. Coincidentally, they became close to you. I could even state who is the ''next target''. 

Actually everything is fine now, because no more ''next target'' because there isn't anyone left. There is actually one, but I am keeping my fingers crossed.

SERIOUSLY, THOSE PEOPLE WHO LOVES TO SLEEP OR THOSE WHO WOULD DO ANYTHING JUST TO SLEEP OR CAST YOUR PARTNER ASIDE, PLEASE DO NOT GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP. THERE ARE MANY INNOCENT PARTIES AROUND. 

RESPECT YOUR PARTNER, ITS FREE, NO NEED FOR YOU TO FORK OUT A SINGLE CENT.

This is basically the life I lead now, in the office or out of office. Me against the whole world.

To those who don't care, you may continue not caring because I am not caring either.

Its another week tomorrow! Have a nice week ahead! Holiday seasons are coming soon or rather it had started a few days ago for me!!

The Last...

9TH OCT 2011 SUNDAY 

(scheduled post)

And so... this is that fateful day and it shall be the last.

Loots from dearest Na from Korea! Thanks love!

Went on a shopping spree! <3

Sometimes, when you give up on someone, its not because you don't care anymore, but because you realised they don't.

To the west

3RD OCTOBER 2011 MONDAY

Received bad news early in the morning. So its journey to the west.

On the train back to the east.... 

If only I could see it coming... I would not have cared so much. Unappreciative. Bias.

Down

Nothing can describe my emotions for the past few weeks or rather months.

What have I done to deserve all these from EVERYONE of you?
You people couldn't treat me with respect. Respect me for who I am.

Lying on the bed, washing my face with tears... Thank you for all these treatment and disappointments.

I will be stronger.

And to the FEW who cares, thank you, it means a lot to me.

Crushed

To those who hate me, you would love to see me in this state now <3

Friendless, loveless....




People who judge, don't matter. People who matter, don't judge.

Love???

Make no effort

Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep & realised that you lost the moon while counting the stars.


Happy counting... ....

In a mess

The easiest way not to get hurt is to not care...

Lovers Day!

10th June 2011 Friday

Dinner and NEX shopping with lover

Camwhore at work :x

Farewell snacks from Henry

Meet up with lover after work to shop & explore NEX. Din Tai Feng for dinner!

The Din Tai Feng at NEX is messy and noisy. 

My favourite prawn pancake! 

Beef noodles!

Not forgetting the xiao long bao

Lover's pork chop fried rice

Shop and laugh around before heading to Mcdonalds for a cup of McFloat!

While shopping with lover, received a pictures message from my brother.... 

Our car for smashed by i-don't-know-what. God bless whoever who did this. 

Troubles never stop coming, don't they?

You don't understand the pain I had inside until you've been through this...

A friendship that can end, never really began.